Friday, January 13, 2012

Pictures in Water - Beauty or Danger?

Yes, you have it all
But you are not quite there yet
Pathways,clean lighted
Food
Bridge, softly lit
Looked over, vastness
Blackness, yet much beauty
Pictures of flowers
In motion
One thing of beauty to the next
But beneath, depth, darkness
Wish my lover was here
Beauty or Danger?

He was never present

Water in a locker room
Nakedness
Man from Nepal
Yes, No
Luring him
Walking up the stairs
Seeking Protection
Trying to gain assurance of intimacy
Looking for him, Searching
Could not find
But then he left
He was never present for me!

Tuesday, December 27, 2011

Amidst Roller Coasters and Candy Stores

We met amidst roller coasters and candy stores.
Roller coaster rides are fun until you realize
you can't get off them!

How much candy can you have?
How much is too much?
What does it do for you?
Does it comfort you?

It was love at first sight for me
For him? Ahh...should I say or
should I let him say?
He said it, one and a half years later
When all is said and done.

Here I am, feeling nostalgic
Re-living what I wish was otherwise
When morning comes
All I will remember are little fragments
Somewhere amidst the fragments,
presence of the life force, you have it
And I have it too.

Thursday, March 3, 2011

Jimmy Ruffin - What Becomes Of The Broken Hearted .mp3
Found at bee mp3 search engine

Thursday, February 3, 2011

Vision

What do you do when you cannot see?
Even the most expensive pair of glasses do not help
The best optician in town gives up hope
Now what?

The dark clouds
The roaring waves
Thunder, storms

Ahhh...I cannot take shelter in my tower
Even that has collapsed
I have lost my vision
I cannot see

Where do I go?

Saturday, January 22, 2011

Unit 10 - Thank You All!

In unit 3 for psychological well-being, it was 5.5, spiritual well-being it was, 6 and physical well-being, 5. Let's see, now I would rate my psychological well-being as 6, spiritual well-being, 6.5 and physical well-being, 5.5. Yes, the scores have improved by .5, I think my progress is very slow but I would rather it be this way then shooting up all the way to the top without much substance. I would to be able to withstand the storm when it comes.

I think my scores have changed mainly due to lots of planning, thinking, praying and quiet time. I did mention in unit 3 that I would like to start off with doing some stretches so as to help my physical well-being and this is something I have been doing. I would like to be a bit more regular but again, at least I have started. I have also started on meditation and I make it a part of whatever I do such as eating without the TV on and also sitting down in silence. Instead of reading positive affirmations, I have been reading other information; just about anything to help broaden my horizons which helps, I think it serves as pleasant diversion. Though I think I must work on starting to read positive affirmations.

This course has been made want to spend more time with myself, it has also helped me to face truths about various situations in my life. In dealing with others, I have noticed that I am more detached yet compassionate. Reading the experiences of others has been rewarding. What has been difficult is picking up myself, the amount of work it takes can be painful but then I believe in , "slowly but surely". I think the experiences I have gone through plus all this knowledge that I have accumulated will be put to good use in the next second, minute, month, year...whoever and whatever that comes my way will benefit. And I will benefit too, simply because it is a cycle.

Thank you all for helping and encouraging me with your great works and experiences:)