Sunday, February 28, 2010

My Blog's life after this course

Honestly, I do not know. I do know that I like writing and I do it quite a bit in my journal. It is always nice to have a pen in your hands and write something down versus turning on the computer, waiting to connect to the internet and then writing or maybe trying to troubleshoot as there might be some network problems. However, the nice thing about blogging on the internet is, one can set it in a way where others do not have access to it. Writing it down in a journal, someone may have access to it if they manage to find it's hiding place.

As much as I do not want people out there to read what I have written, I also do value the comments on whatever I have written so far. It is rather strange, it is like wanting someone to know you yet desiring to be anonymous. I do not understand this. It reminds me of the very many mystic poets such as Kabir, Rumi and more. Such depth and impact in each word used and yet we never had the chance to meet these poets. Perhaps that was meant to be, that we only meet them through reading what they have written.

So yes, I would still write but I do not know if it will be on my blog, maybe yes, maybe no.

Saturday, February 20, 2010

Peer Reviews and My Experiences with them.

I think I learn alot from feedback. Gaining feedback is key in improving upon a particular task. There have been negative experiences but I want to say more postive than negative. Having both types of experiences are also valuable because it helps you decide which information you should be recptive to and which ones you should throw out the window. I think when a person provides feedback, their one motive should be, to help the other get better and not to crush the other. This is visible by seeing the content of feedback offered, words used. Are they being very objective or is is merely a personal attack?

I think that we are all teachers and it is just very important to come from a point of nurturing and building a person. Words are very powerful so we must be very wise and selective in how we use them. This reminds me of my Art teacher, Ms Victoria Loy, in high school. By the way, I failed eveything in high school except Art and English and I think that a big part of me obtaining wonderful grades for these two subjects were mainly due to my teachers being very encouraging, helpful and nurturing. When I was stuck at one point or another, they would ask me questions that made me think and come up with solutions on my won. I recall skipping my dental appointments just to be with Ms Vistoria Loy and working on my project. She was very gentle and guided me through. We would work in silence and talked only when needed and every sentence that came out of her mouth was inspiring. When I was done, I scored a distinction for it!

Thanks to great feedback, from great people.

Friday, February 12, 2010

In the last 6 weeks.......

Well, I started working at my new job. I have not had a full-time job in the last one year and eight months, so you must know how pleased I am to be able to wake up in the morning, utilize public transportation, be amongst many who use the escalators and of course get a pay check just like all those employed people out there.

Not having that full-time job was very painful, that lack of direction, that uselessness I felt, I still am not able to bring myself to tell you how hard it was and how much self-confidence I lost during that peirod of unemployment. Having finally being given the opportunity to sit infront of an interviewing panel and then wait for a week before hearing the "Yes, we would like to make you an offer" was simply ecstatic!

I have been in training and just last week, my boss told me that I am ready to roll on my own and I have been on cloud nine since. During those diffcult times, friends told me that the wheels will one day turns and things will not be the same and yes indeed the tables have turned and I am simply thankful for the many friends who stood by me even though there were some who left and again, writing this as I am thinking about it, has brought tears to my eyes. I guess I will have to focus on the ones who stood by me rather than the ones who left. But again the ones who left were the closest ones and I still hurt but at least every morning when I wake up I can thank God for being there and also I can now lift up my face in pride as I walk down the streets to catch the train.

Sunday, February 7, 2010

How is school influencing my life at this point?

I would like to say that I am very happy to be in school and that it does scare me when I think about what I would do when it is over. I have always been one who likes learning new things, knowledge is extremely important to me and therefore I have to constantly be exposed to new information. At this point, school is doing this for me. I have also noticed that I have learnt to be better at managing my time and am rather disciplined.

I think that for me, I will always be studying something. I plan on getting my Master's after I am done with my Bsc. It would probably be about 2-3 years before I do it though as I need to finish paying my student loan before I can study again. So within that 2-3 years I will have to make sure that I have enough to challenge me intellectually. I do think that whatever I am learning now, I would want to create opportunities for me to put into practice what I have learnt especially when after graduating. However, sometimes I do find myself drawing from what I have learnt and incorporating in my daily life and I think that this is how it should be.

Monday, February 1, 2010

Does Counseling Help?

Hi everyone, Welcome to Unit 4. Times passes by so fast.
I looked at the topics on plagiarism and then I thought to myself that it is interesting to share my thoughts on it. However, I decided to talk about counseling and I would like your comments.
Do you think counseling can help a person?
I often think that counseling on benefits those who are willing to make a change. But what about someone who is forced into counseling? Will there be changes? Will the person become even more resistant? Even if no changes are made, counseling does force a person to think. Questions are being asked between counselor and client. Both parties are made to think. I sometimes think about the movie goodwill hunting where Matt Damon is basically ordered to go for counseling and in the end he actually goes to find the woman that he likes, he did not want to be that mathematician that everyone was trying to help him be. What I would like to know though is what happens after he finds that woman and lives with her? Can they be happy together especially when he has gone through so much? I guess here is my question, can a person who has gone through so much pain be able to treat another person with love. My answer would be, yes if they are willing to receive love themselves but if they are not? Then what? Are they then meant to live love being wounded animals or is there truly a way to heal those wounds? I do not know the answer.