Tuesday, December 14, 2010

Mental Fitness Unit 5 Project

Hi all, here is my unit 5 project. At first I did not know how to upload my presentation but a good friend of mine in Singapore taught me how. Enjoy the presentation.


Sunday, December 12, 2010

Subtle Mind

I enjoyed the subtle mind practice versus the loving-kindness practice. I think it is because I found so much comfort in not having to force myself to think about anything. It was easier to calm my mind by not thinking. The loving kindness practice called for more discipline on my part, where I had to stop thoughts such as ahh...what is going to happen with my job, when should I relocate to thoughts of loving kindness to self, a person who is unwell, strangers and then to all living beings...you see I have to think, there is intention which means forcing my mind, there is conscious intention. With all the chaotic thoughts taking up space in my head, the subtle mind kind of gave me a break:)

When I am spiritually well, I find that there is an endless flow of strength for me to engage in activities that I like or require my attention. I do not have to force myself. On the other hand, when I am spiritually unwell, even getting out of bed is a task. In simple term, feeling spiritually well to me means that I am ok, my presence is needed in this universe, I see the bigger purpose and when I am in this state of mind anything that I do turns out to have a postive outcome and when I see the positive outcome I feel great physically, emotionally and mentally.

Sunday, December 5, 2010

Loving Kindness

The loving kindness practice for me was kind of an interesting one. I say this because I do find the instructions helpful on the other hand I found it rather disruptive especially when I am beginning to enjoy the sound of the waves. However, the sound of the waves was kind of artificial too, it was repetitive the same sounds, very fake. I think this is the case as I am used to listening to music that has no interruptions which helps me focus better. I must say that the method of practive that is focusing on your loved one, sick one, strangers and all living beings including enemies is a rather complex one and one that is very hard to do and at times I found it hard because I am still angry with some people. I think practice and time will certainly help.

The concept of "mental workout" is basically training your mind, being contemplative, feeding it with positive thoughts even when it is difficult. Research indicates that mental workout leads to gaining wisdom, peace, compassion, happiness and wholeness. Through time, we create an inner haven within oursleves, a place that we will want to keep coming back to however it takes perseverance. Spending time in contemplative practice on a daily basis perhaps twice a day through meditation where I repeat postive affirmations to myself with each breath can foster psychological health for me.

References
Dacher, E.S. (2006). Psychospiritual Flourishing, Integral Health: The Path to Human Flourishing.
Laguna Beach, CA: Basic Health Publication, Inc.

Friday, December 3, 2010

Ballerina

Two friends, Layla and Shyla
Talking, laughing, website designs
Drinks, parties, sweets, laptop and then

Layla asked Shyla
So, what about him?
Shyla said, I let him go
Layla asked, why?

Shyla with a twinkle in her eye...

I planted the flowers they were pretty but not enough
The flowers next door were gorgeous

Everyday I walked up the hill, barefoot
To be with my beloved, in my brokeness
When I got tired, I tried to hold his hand so I will not fall
Ahhh...but I forget, he is already up the hill, looking down at me
One day, I fell while walking up the hill
I started to crawl, I became hungry and thirsty
Perhaps my beloved would come to get me
I crawled till my palms bled and my knees bruised
My beloved did not come

In my brokeness, I cannot cage a bird that wants to fly
In my brokeness, I still want to hear the bird sing
If not near, from afar
At least I can still dance when I hear the music

I am the ballerina who bows out gracefully after the dance...
So tell me, did I do my turns right?
How was my foot work?
Will you clap for me?

Monday, November 29, 2010

My Wellness and Experience with Rainbow meditation

Let's see on a scale of 1-10 for my physical well-being, I would be 5, spiritual well-being 6 and psychological well-being 5.5. Yes, they do not look great at all and I would like for these numbers to change. On the physical level, I have been going through some struggles medically though I do think that this is about to improve soon. Have been on medication that has caused some liver problems but my doctors has discontinued this. For Spiritual well-being, I am struggling with a bit of a depression and am having a hard time trusting the superior one, it is coming back since I have started meditation and prayer again. For my psychological well-being, when things are not as great as they are, it is hard to convince myself otherwise which is exactly what I am going through; negative thoughts.

I have thought about goals for each of these areas and so here it is:-
Physical well-being: I would like to let my body heal and start doing stretches and slowly and slowly get back deeper into dancing.
Spiritual well-being: I would like to spend 15-30 minutes each day in prayer and meditation.
Psychological well-being: I would like to spend at least 15 minutes each day reading literature, quotes that are postive to counter the negative thoughts in my mind.

Exercise that can benefit my physical well-being at this point would be vinyasa yoga, I just love the flow and belly dancing, helps with creativity and ultimately makes my body healthy.
As for spiritual well-being, my meditation would be focusing on my breath and I do like focusing on all my chakras.
For psychological well-being, I love literature such as Rumi, Khalil Gibran and I am open to others as well.

I absolutely enjoyed the rainbow meditation, it made me feel very calm and relaxed. I would like to use this on a daily basis as part of my meditation exercise. It was nice to not have to answer the phone. I think I would benefit from doing this on a daily basis simply because I do like the idea of chakra meditation.

Saturday, November 20, 2010

My Experience with the Journey Exercise

Hi there
I would like to say that it brought me back to the times where I used to meditate on a frequent basis. At times during the process I wanted to cry simply because I recalled the times when I was much more dedicated to the practice of meditation and then being the current state I am there has been too much pain, law suit, breaching of medical information, sexual harassment, hostile work environment, they are all too overwhelming and I find it hard to get away from it all.

This meditation experience reminded me that it does not have to be the circumstances but I can set aside 15 minutes each day no matter how bad things are....and those 15 minutes might be helping my body organs for a long long time.

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